Unsettling thought


Good evening everyone or good morning rather since it’s already 12.05AM!

Around 9 PM yesterday, I am on my way back to the dorm. As I rode the bus, an unsettling thought occurred in my head. It is a question that would seem easy to somebody but it is not for me. That question could also be evident to someone but it is not to me. This question kept bothering me until I reached my dorm. I have talked about it with my best friend, Vina. And it seems that she was thinking about the same thing. So, I think all of you are itching to know what this question is. The question is…

What am I going to do with my future?

What am I going to do with my future? This question is a very important question as it determines the course of your life and it affects most of the primary decisions you are going to make. To some people, most of their future are all laid out upon them. To some people, the future is easy to them because job offers actually come to them and they don’t have to search for a job and go through interviews. But to me, a normal citizen of the Philippines and currently residing in Taiwan, my future is a blank page.

On a side note: Let me be frank with y’all. The reason I am writing this now is so I can have an outlet for my emotions. My thoughts needed a place to reside ( I don’t know if that really made sense but you know what I mean 😉 ).

Going back to what I was saying, my future felt so foreign to me. I don’t know if I was the one resisting the change that was already happening. I felt like I was not yet ready for the “adulting” life. But then again I started to revel in these thoughts and I realized something.

I realized that everyone goes through this stage and it is perfectly normal to feel this way. Everyone feels uncertain about their future. Everyone is struggling on what they should do with their life. Everyone starts with baby steps in navigating through their future. In doing so, this makes them discover what they want along the way. The beauty of starting off with a blank page is that anything is possible and any road leads you to where you wanna be!

Please pardon my writing skills as I am new to this. This is Caye and welcome to the Mundane Life of an Expat!